What is the current state of my understanding? This is what really matters. As for everything else, it's beyond my control. And if it's beyond my control, then it's dead to me — just smoke.
What is the present estate of my understanding? For herein lieth all indeed. As for all other things, they are without the compass of mine own will: and if without the compass of my will, then are they as dead things unto me, and as it were mere smoke.